Right now I seem to have difficulties to think and write in both languages, it seems like one would be the ultimate thing, and then I think I would have to go with this one, since I do like to twist and turn a lingo that I am not so familiar with. But I have to think about it.
It's been quite a hectic week, I have (being the wise (hmm..) person I am tried to get all things done that I haven't been able to do in the month when I have been sick...)
All I can say it isn't exactly working.
The only thing I managed to do is to stress myself out.
One would think, that someone that knows so much about taking care of myself would be better to realize my own limits, then again, I guess this is what we call "to be human", to always try and stretch oneself just a little bit more, do one more thing and so on...
I have been planting my flowers, cleaning the closets, walking (and hell, how much condition one loose in one month, I tell you, it's ridiculous... On the other hand, it's coming back quite fast, but anyway....)
This Friday, a friend suggested that we should have a couple of beers, and man, did I need it...
I know, some people say that you shouldn't use alcohol as a stress-reliever, but seriously, I didn't care about them this Friday, what I did realize was though that I really needed to not care about anything more important than another beer and another laugh...
Yes, another laugh, because I realized I haven't exactly been laughing my ass off this March, you know what's been going on, and it's been tough. We're not out of it yet, but by now all we are doing is to wait and see what'll be happening.
It'll be okay, I hope. Or not.
Anyway, it will be one way or the other.
My friend isn't doing any progress either, you know, I should probably say that anything I say here about her has been "okay-ed" from her side, otherwise I would never written about her.
But this week she told me that the person she talks with now, who tries to help her, had suggested that she should seek psychological help in order to dig through stuff that happened in the past, a thing that she does not want, because as she said to me "I am over that, I am done with it, what's the use to dig up that shit again?"
And I said, "Well, if you're so over and done with all that, why are you feeling so bad then? I mean, it's not a strange thing that you feel bad with the unemployment and the ie-office hanging around your neck, but seriously, you haven't been feeling okay before that either. If you're so over with everything in the past, why the hell don't you just feel fine? Or felt fine before?"
(And yeah, I know, I probably wont get a friendship-award this year... But I really wanted to know why.)
So now, she's thinking about if maybe she should take a step back in time and dig up some things... We'll see. As I said, I am not saying that is the solution, but why the hell not give it a try before rejecting it.
Maybe I am wrong.
I don't know.
Well, that's all for me now, how you been?
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hey, the "no bullshit" thing is almost always the best for friends, even if it seems uncomfortable (and decidedly non-scandinavian), but you know I'd say that...
hey, big news for me, I finally got a payment plan worked out for my tax problem (after two years of hell) and then - three days later - I get a letter saying that because I owe taxes and haven't worked out a payment plan the government is going to take all of my property... fun, huh?
evil/stupidity never sleeps
Yeah, I sort of thought you might say that. And kinda good to hear it's not the worst thing to say, even if I did though feel like kind of an asshole when I said it, but you know, I just couldn't lie and say that I thought she was right when I didn't think she was..
Damn!!! They can't be serious, have you tried to reach them so that they know that you have a plan for the payment??? They can't just barge in and take everything now, when finally there's a payment plan. I will keep my fingers crossed here, and hope it will work out for you!
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